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Taking a Deep Breath . . .

 As of 45 minutes ago, my re-written, re-tooled, re-thought (and hopefully re-fundable) NSF grant has gone in over the wire - a full day before deadline.  Now I get to fret and stew for an entire month while I wait to hear.  I'm still working on my NIH version of the proposal.  That's not due until Feb 18 (before I'll hear from the NSF, natch :-/ ) so I have some time to review that EMBO paper that I put off while I was grant writing, take care of those JBC page proofs that have been hanging fire and to go quietly insane because I did something reeeeaaalllly stupid:  I signed up for dysfuncentine . 

Yes, I know - I'm being a whiny baby, but there's a reason for that.  When I decided to sign up, it was after I'd read the prompts and one of them just leapt out at me with a flash of inspiration.  If I'd sat down to write it right that minute, regardless of whether I was actually assigned the prompt, I might have had a neat little story.  But, noooooooooo.  And so the flash of inspiration dissipated, never to return, as I focused my attention on other things.  So, of course when I finally got around to opening my assignment email just a bit ago, that's the prompt I got.  Reading the prompt again did not help.  So now I have to come up with something for two characters I'm not certain I know well enough to write.  Not to mention find an actual plot to put them in.  Merlin on a bicycle - this one just has 'disaster' written all over it.  You may regret telling your flist to laugh at me when I say I can't write, kellychambliss .  After this they may well be laughing, but not for that reason.  ::buries head in hands::  I think I'll go and do something easy now, like proving String Theory or something. :-P

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lash_larue
Jan. 21st, 2011 01:53 am (UTC)
Nice icon. I love Calvin.

I volunteer to beta. We can bounce some ideas back and forth if you like. You can get my email from my LJ profile. I feel sort of responsible here, since I have picked on you about not writing. Of course, since I started posting on FF.net, I have learned that I don't have an imagination, so you might not want that rubbishy sort of help, but I offer it.

Be of good cheer! I fear no ebil, for I am the ebilest beeotch in the whole damn valley.
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albalark
Jan. 21st, 2011 02:45 am (UTC)
*You* are an angel. I accept. And anyone who can write piano pr0n has imagination to spare. :-)

Edited at 2011-01-21 02:46 am (UTC)
therealsnape
Jan. 21st, 2011 07:30 am (UTC)
Oh, god, FF net. Well, I post there, too. But it's true that they come up with things you wouldn't believe.

And since Albalark has your excellent support, she'll do very well at that fest. If you still want to whinge, Lark, feel free. I'll listen. Lash never whinges, she just delivers one story after another ...
albalark
Jan. 22nd, 2011 05:59 pm (UTC)
Lash to the rescue! Very Gryffindor of her, wouldn't you say? ::g:: I suspect that the whinging on my part will disappear, but you may begin hearing whinges of regret from Ms. LaRue.

I may have to check out FF.net simply for the comments - I'm guessing their entertainment value (for snark purposes) must be pretty high!
perverse_idyll
Jan. 21st, 2011 07:44 am (UTC)
Oh, ugh, the waiting period. I hope all the work of revamping the proposal pays off. *crosses fingers*

You signed up for dysfuncentine! I am so pleased. Now I get to sit with a big ebil grin on my face, anticipating your fic. (I haven't read the other one yet. It's bookmarked! I'm perennially behind on reading.)

And so the flash of inspiration dissipated, never to return

Although I deeply sympathize, I'm glad to hear I'm not the only writer to whom this happens. My muse loves to ambush me while I'm in the shower, far away from note-taking implements. Usually I manage to salvage a soggy shred of half-formed sentence (say that five times fast) that trails off just before divulging its plot bunny of genius. It's a pity, though, because now that you've mentioned it I want to read the story that pounced on you! I find it very suspicious, for evolutionary purposes, that our brains are so jolly quick to mislay things.

Right now I'm dying to know which prompts have been gobbled up. So many of them gave me a burst of wicked glee and will definitely provide spark for some fabulously effed-up fics. Fortunately (for me as a layabout reader) the turnaround on this fest is pretty snappy. (Erm…not to add to your creative anxiety or anything.)
albalark
Jan. 22nd, 2011 05:01 pm (UTC)
Now I get to sit with a big ebil grin on my face, anticipating your fic. (I haven't read the other one yet. It's bookmarked! I'm perennially behind on reading.)

Schadenfreude isn't nice, Pervy. :-D Besides, you'd better read the other one before you get all anticipatory - you may decide you'd prefer to skip the new one.

It's a pity, though, because now that you've mentioned it I want to read the story that pounced on you! I find it very suspicious, for evolutionary purposes, that our brains are so jolly quick to mislay things.

Me, too. :-P Got pounced by another one last night, *completely* unrelated to the one I'm supposed to be writing, so I whipped out my new ipod and started to get down as much of it as popped up in my brain before getting frustrated trying to write on a 2" by 4" screen. That worked better, but I've still lost some of what I wanted to get down. Maybe I'll try the voice memo function next time, but I feel like an idiot talking to myself out loud. As for the evolutionary thing, it's that transition from short-term to long-term memory that's the problem. Any sort of distraction kills it, which is why my short term memory suc - oh look! A bird! - ::scratches head:: now what was it I was saying?

the turnaround on this fest is pretty snappy. (Erm…not to add to your creative anxiety or anything.)

Oh, no pressure. None at all. Completely got this under control! Not one word of any consequence written, but I'm completely under control!!! ::wibbles::
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albalark
Jan. 22nd, 2011 05:52 pm (UTC)
It wouldn't have been so bad if I'd written it right when it came to me - I'd have had a solid start at least - but I was at work at the time and was distracted almost right away. Sigh.

But now that Lash is holding my hand, there may actually be something to look forward to after all, so there'll be a lot less whinging - at least about this, anyway! :-)
dickgloucester
Jan. 21st, 2011 04:19 pm (UTC)
Everything is crossed for you. And I am sure you will rise to the writing challenge!
albalark
Jan. 22nd, 2011 05:55 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Dickie! :-)
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